Series: Fall Away, #1.5
Author: Penelope Douglas
Category: Contemporary Romance
Genre: New Adult (+18)
Rating: 5 stars out of 5
***This novel contains graphic sexual content and harsh language. It is only appropriate for adult readers age 18+.
Have you ever been so angry that hitting things felt good? Or so numb that you actually felt high? The past few years have been like that for me. Traveling between fury and indifference with no stops in between.
Some people hate me for it, while others are scared of me. But none of them can hurt me, because I don't care about anything or anyone.
I love her so much that I hate her. We used to be friends, but I found out that I couldn't trust her or anyone else.
So I hurt her. I pushed her away.
But I still need her. The sight of her centers me, and I can pool all of my anger into her. Engaging her, challenging her, bullying her...they are my food, my air, and the last part of me that feels anything human.
But she left. She went to France for a year, and came back a different girl.
Now, when I push, she pushes back.
When I read Bully I wasn't expecting to really enjoy it, so when I fall in love with the characters and their story, especially Jared, I just had to pick up his book! I had to understand him better, I had to get his POV. And though Until You is set during the first book, it didn’t feel like I was re-reading the same story. I loved that. And I loved that I got to really see and understand Jared on so many levels.
He is such a deep character with quite a few emotional scars. He dealt with his pain in the only way he could, and I’m definitely not saying it was the right way, but it was the only way this character could cope. And his situation, what he went through, it broke my heart! It made me connect to him in ways I didn’t think I would and I'm so proud of him. Jared develops and grows so much, and watching that was so much fun.
“Girlfriend isn't enough to describe you, Tate. That term is disposable. You’re not my girlfriend, my girl, or my woman. You’re. Just. Mine.”
I loved being in his head, and though his thoughts were a bit, erm, harsh at times, it was an experience and an eye opener. Seeing how he perceived Tate and his feelings for her also came through very strong. Douglas did a great job at allowing me to really see and feel her characters. And I loved that she allowed her readers a better insight into this complicated character.
The book moved at a great pace and even though this book is a retelling of Bully, it wasn't, if that makes any sense. There were scenes that weren't in the first book. It felt fresh and once I picked it up I couldn't put it down. Douglas has a wonderful writing style and is so wonderful at allowing me to feel for her characters. And though the book does deal with some rather harsh realities, I couldn't get enough of it.
I’ll do anything to be good for you.”
Jared’s story was such an eye opener. Seeing his world, experiencing his feelings, made his actions in Bully that much more understandable. I love Jared to pieces and his story broke my heart. But I am so happy to see how much he has grown. I think I enjoyed Until You even more than Bully. And I also can't wait to get more pieces of Tate and Jared's story in the upcoming books!
I don’t recommend this book/series to just anyone, only to readers who are open and have a love for challenging characters.